Kyung said it’s only a matter of time before I get this

But this is what I prefer for Bryan. Geek power.

Or more preferably, a “Hello World” shirt…

Kyung said it’s only a matter of time before I get this

But this is what I prefer for Bryan. Geek power.

Or more preferably, a “Hello World” shirt…

The hospital gave us enough Pampers diapers for a couple of days. And we sure used them up fast. So we switched to the Huggies diapers we got at a discount from Costco. What a mistake.
Those Huggies, how do I put this delicately… um, they are pieces of crap. Not only does the texture inferior to the free diapers given to us by the hospital, they leak easily. Apparently I am not the only person complaining. A quick Google will result in many complaints about the same thing.
Good thing Costco has great return policies. On the shelf is where this product belongs. God damn pieces of crap!
Speaking of Costco, I had to get a huge 38 oz can of Enfamil baby formula from Costco (this one). Grace has been in the hospital since Saturday night and has been receiving antibiotics to treat her infection. Her breast milk, naturally, is not usable for the baby. So formula it is for now. The damn thing cost me $28! Yikes! I wonder how long the can is going to last.
While researching on the Huggies issue, I discovered this dad blogging about everything baby. Cool! Given the amount of coverage given to family matters, my blog may soon turn into one of those daddy blogs too…
UPDATE: I ran out to the supermarket and got Pampers right after I posted this. And 10 diapers later, no problemo. Huggies is definitely going back to Costco.
Bryan has been a delight since he came home. Lack of sleep aside, it’s been fun taking care of him and just looking at him sleep in his crib or in my arms. He smiled for the first time in the hospital the other day. Even though infants at this stage have no cognitive ability to truly smile (it’s just a muscle reflex), it’s still nice to think otherwise.
Brian used to tell me how it’s fascinating to see how the babies see the world for the first time. In a way, we are also seeing the world for the first time through their eyes. I experienced that with Bryan for the first time the day he was born. When I held him, his eyes were wide open. Though he couldn’t see a damn thing (new-borns are practically blind), the way he rolled his eyes was as if he was scanning the room, studying everything that was in it; fascinated.
Lack of sleep can get to people sometimes. They become cranky. But I felt alright waking up every two hours feeding him or changing his diapers. I don’t even feel indifferent; I feel almost happy to do it for him. Is this what parenthood is like? Mysterious joy that just creeps up my spine when I go out of my way to do things for my own child? Damn it feels good. Or… maybe next week I will take these words back. Hah!
A 103-degree fever brought Grace to the E.R. last night at 6PM. She was admitted almost immediately. That was pretty fast (I will explain why later). But the actual care, meaning, having someone to look at what may have caused the fever, took another four hours. And then it took another two hours after that to decide if she had to stay the night for additional observation.
An ultrasound showed that Grace had some clogs of blood in her uterus from giving birth, which may have been what caused the fever. Though the E.R. staff were helpful and friendly, the time we spent waiting was excruciatingly long.
So this brought me to talk about the American Emergency Room system. While sitting in the waiting room until Grace was cleared to see visitors, I overheard some people complaining their wait time of 8+ hours. To add to that, when I left the hospital at the end of the visitation hours (around 1AM), I saw a young couple who were there long before we got there, but were still waiting to be admitted.
Bear in mind, to the American medical system, emergency doesn’t really mean EMERGENCY. What they really mean is usually one of the three things:
1. Your doctor’s not available to see you because he’s booked for the next three months. In the meantime, any medical problems you have, you are f*cked.
2. It’s the weekend/holiday, and your doctor does not see patients because he needs time off too. So you are f*cked.
3. You don’t have insurance, or that your insurance is so limited that it doesn’t cover whatever you are having problems with. So you are f*cked.
Then what does emergency really mean in America? It means, you are having certain medical issues and your primary doctor is not available to see you. So what do you do? You go to E.R. to get “immediate” treatment. Now, even the word immediate is a relative term in America. It’s all mathematics; everyone can agree that waiting for 12 hours to be admitted into E.R. is much more immediate than having to wait for three months to see a doctor. Yes?
In order to be admitted truly immediately into E.R. in the U.S., you must have a life-threatening condition or wound, merely having a terrible pain or maybe a broken thumb are not nearly enough. In our case, Grace has had high fever for more than a couple of hours, she had to be admitted and treated right away.
The ironic thing was, when I was with Grace inside E.R., there was a bum who was so drunk that he passed out on the street and got admitted into E.R.. And the staff said that was his third time THAT DAY in the E.R. and that he’s been a frequent in that particular hospital. So this begs the question, how come tax- and bill-paying customers are waiting for 10+ hours just to be diagnosed for their problems, street bums and crack heads who pass out from their drug of choice, and most likely will not pay the hospital bills, get to be cared for long before the others? It’s not to suggest that just because they choose to abuse their body and put their lives in danger that they shouldn’t be treated equally in the eyes of medicine. But it does open up a debate on just how the American society is going to approach this kind of abuse of its medical systems.
Americans used to blame illegal immigrants and foreigners for their high health insurance bills and expensive medical systems in general. It’s long been thought that the system has been abused by those immigrants so that Americans end up with the tab. But a recent study showed that just the opposite is true. It’s been the American-born citizens who are abusing their own medical systems (i.e. drug heads, suicide attempts that were designed to be rescued… which was the case of a woman next to Grace’s gurney). Immigrants, illegal or not, have not been using medical services all that frequently, even those who have health insurance.
A typical E.R. visit can cost anywhere from $1,000 to $15,000 USD depending on the procedures required to treat the patient. But in my experience (unfortunately, from stories of people around me), the average has been around $3,000 to $5,000. The cost usually includes seeing a nurse, have temperature and blood pressure and other vitals taken, minor treatments by a doctor, maybe they’ll even let you stay there for the night. For example, my brother had to go to E.R. for allergic reactions to aspirin (long story) a couple of years ago. That trip itself was $3,000 — the cost included a shot, one night stay at the hospital (sorry, no private rooms), and let’s not forget the ride in the emergency vehicle (that’s all to yourself; no need to pick up other people along the way).
Getting back to Grace, she’s feeling much better now. Her fever’s dropped back to normal (but still on the high side). Hopefully she’ll be home today. Thank god my mom’s here to help out. I can’t imagine taking care of Bryan all by myself with almost zero sleep.
As we were getting ready to check Grace and the baby out of the hospital, a new mother checked in next to Grace’s bed (there are two beds in one recovery and nursery unit). The nurse was explaining the importance of breast feeding when the father walked in with two big bags of McDonald’s lunch bags.
The nurse looked at the bags and asked the mother, “Have you seen ‘Supersize Me‘?”
Reply: “Yeah, I guess. I have heard of it.” Started eating. I wonder if this has to do with the fact that she’s on the really heavy side of the weight spectrum.
Finally, the mother grew tired of the breast feeding pep-talk and rejected the idea all together. She claims that both of her previous children were not breast fed, so why should this one be any different!
God damn it, I can’t stand ignorant people who think they know all the answers.
Our philosophy is, when you become a parent, you think and do what’s the best for the baby (whenever possible), not what’s convenient for you. Why can’t people get that inside their tiny little grey matters? Are they even using the 10% some scientists think we only utilize?
This morning was a happy morning. It was the morning when Grace and Bryan were coming home. But it took a hospital a few hours to process paperwork, to book Bryan’s next pediatric appointment and just to make sure everything else was done.
Bryan almost had to stay for additional observation because of his increasing level of jaundice. Damn Asian babies with their yellow skins… The doc said Asian babies typically have higher levels of jaundice, but it’s nothing to worry about (yet). He also suggested to expose him to some sunlight to help reduce the level of jaundice. Another thing was to feed him plenty of milk, which in turn will help reduce the level of jaundice as well.
Tomorrow is Bryan’s first pediatric appointment… We’ll see.
Tonight will be my first physical endurance test with Bryan at home. It won’t be long until I get the Panda eyes myself.
A side note: Grace is finally starting to produce some foremilk. It contains highly saturated nutrients and antibodies for the baby. The exact composition of the foremilk is not perfectly understood yet. But virtually everyone agrees that it’s crucial stuff for the baby’s health and immune system, even as s/he grows beyond infancy.
I guess third degree laceration is not a common thing. Those lacerations are pretty serious deep cuts. But Grace has been doing incredibly well. I haven’t heard any complaints about pain yet.
Right after Bryan’s birth, the hospital approached her with a form asking her to participate in a clinical study, sponsored by Stanford’s medical research arm, to see if treating third degree lacerations with antibiotics will help the wound heal faster. Grace won’t know if she’s receiving the antibiotics for the sake of keeping the research subjective.
Our answer? Whatever it takes to advance the science and medical research, man.
But the story doesn’t end here…
Two days later, a pediatrician showed up at Grace’s nursery and recovery room asking if we’d like to have Bryan participate in another research to see if a certain virus is present in babies (forget the name). This virus can be present with adults and does not do anything. But in infants, it could cause serious damages. Since all she needed was a swab of Bryan’s saliva and nothing else, we agreed. Whatever it takes to advance the science and medical research…. I hope they are not secretly making baby clones out in the labs somewhere… It also made me feel like those doctors are like those bad house-to-house sales people who’d knock on your door to try to get you to buy their latest amazing goods.
Interestingly, this study on the virus was also sponsored by Stanford.
Bryan pooped and peepeed a few times. Good signs that his body is working the way it ought to be. But let me tell ya, his poops are weird! They are black like a black bean paste… Yuck!
He still has baby acne all over his tiny little nose. It’s supposed to get worse before it gets better. The cause is still unknown, but some “experts” believe that it’s the mother’s hormones reacting with the baby’s. The acne goes away in a couple of weeks though.
Both Grace and Bryan and doing very well. Bryan’s still trying to learn to latch on to Grace’s nipples for feeding. It’s really a learning process for both of them. But it’s really amazing to see little new borns with this sucking instinct without anyone teaching them. It may take a few days for Grace’s breast to be able to produce enough milk for Bryan. But in the meantime, both parties have to keep trying. It’s the baby’s sucking motion that helps the mother’s breast to produce milk.
While Grace’s body is still trying to adjust its postpartum hormone levels, we are tricking Bryan with formula milk the hospital provided when he does his sucking motion. He will learn that’s how he gets his food….
They will be out of the hospital tomorrow if both of their vitals are ok. We look forward to having them back at home finally.
For your inquisitive minds, Bryan has been given a Chinese name as of this morning: Yong-si.
For the Chinese-literate folks, it looks like this: ![]()
Let me explain…
reads Yong = reading or singing poetically
reads Si (or Xi, thanks to lack of spelling standards in Taiwan) = peaceful, happy, bright, prosperous; this was also part of the name of a Qing Dynasty emperor, Kangxi, in the 1600s. He is considered to be one of the greatest emperors in Chinese history by historians. One of his achievements was the compilation of the great Chinese Dictionary, Kanxi Dictionary, which was the most complete reference to all Chinese characters at the time. It is still being frequently referenced to even today.
That’s a lot of meanings packed into two little words. I suppose all parents go through something like this — complex feelings for the child to succeed and be happy in life, but at the same time can’t help but feel worried for him.
So with the name, we completed Bryan’s birth certificate as well as a social security number today. He’s become citizen of a country where Grace and I have worked so hard, but failed, to become.
When we travel internationally, things might get a little bit complicated. We have something like a mini-U.N. right in our household.
Me = Taiwan
Grace = Malaysia
Bryan = United States
Since I am in the mood for baby stuff, a couple of babies here were born right around the time of Bryan…. Both sons of my friends from SCAD.
Walker Murdza @ New Jersey, USA

Allen Tillmann @ Friedrichsdorf, Germany

Same kid?


I am sure many of you are wondering how Grace’s doing. Here it is….
After almost 3 hours tough labor, our nurse was getting concerned about the baby’s vitals. Grace’s body temperature was creeping up while the baby’s heart rate was a little unsteady at times. At first they decreased the amount of epidural so that she could actually feel the pain to help her with the push. But that didn’t work too well.
While the position of the baby’s head was improving with every push, it just wasn’t enough. So a doctor came in and explained to us a couple of options Grace had to help her with the delivery: vacuum or scoop. Grace decided on the vacuum since it had a less change of tearing on you-know-where.
Once that decision was made, a whole fricking team of people came in with special equipments which required modification of the birthing bed. WTF. They didn’t say the setup was going to be so elaborate. It’s almost intimidating.
The whole room, at this point, was filled with female nurses, doctors and specialists. Barring Bryan, I was the only male in the delivery room. That was an odd experience.
After the vacuum was setup, it took three really big pushes to get the head out, and another gentle push to get the rest of Bryan out of Grace. After this intense maneuver, Grace still suffered a third degree laceration. OUCH!
Grace took everything like a champ though. No tears. No complaints. Just really deep breathes and big pushes.
A few stitches later, Grace was all smiling with the baby in her arms. Obviously the industrial-strength pain-killer was doing its job. I have a feeling she won’t be so smiley when she goes back to consumer-strength pain-killers when she gets home…
Grace has been in recovery room since last night. She will be there for a couple of days with the Bryan.

Hanging out with granny…